&the greying vision

Tuesday, March 07, 2006 9:19 PM

time for my fingers to start typing lers.

shan't blog for all of the days. if it will be a ultra long one.

now my determination is shaking. it seems so far for mi to reach the mass communication for my future. i am supposed to have realistic dreams for myself and hit for it. mass communication seems really far for me. yet i love the course. whatever man! i feel like giving up upon seeing the load of work piling on us. it's too stress. yes. it is! band is another one giving mi headache. its a long time i've been frequently going for the band practises. and yes i know is my own fault resulting myself not having any performance pieces to play on speech day. yet, i felt depressed. as a graduating student and the sole sec 5 senior. swan concert not having any thing to play is sad okie.! and tht's my last give out for ctsb. yes. the last one. i doubt im going back after i've grad. tht's sad. no feeling for this batch.

i shall say my last week of the term one is ending. last week. yet IM LATE.! im so pissed can. if i wasn't late today. i'ld have broken my record of not going to school late for the whole term, where in my secondary school life have not done. and i seriously can say. sec 5 life is a drastic change compared to sec4/3. those life and more relax. we still can stay back in school and PLAY. but now we stayed back in school to STUDY. see the contrast.? oh yea. next week's the term break. for others, they couldenjoy their lifes. yet we pathetic kid still have to go to school and study for the whole day.. from monday all the way to friday. the only thing i could say it is worse off than having school hours. what else more i could say.

i've decided to join alumni. yet im afraid i cant cope with the studies im having now. esp, they are having the concert after my o level chinese exams. i wanna aim a grade of b3 so i do not need to retake at the end of the year. thus, one subject down for me. thts great! incredible.!

sentosa on sat. before going off for the full drive studying mood. i seriously need the concentration i had last year at the end of the year, studying for my n level. tht alone is not enough. i need double! triple! i wan my aim.! i wanna hit my desired points. FOCUS CINDY! =D

tht's all i could say. lesser update from now. brother gonna be a mafia of the house. grabbing onto the computer all alone. playing one the world of warcraft. or whatever. smile always=D

`cindy loves everyone. esp her lil c's family! =D

i shall say. purple rocks!

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